autistic folks when their routine gets disrupted, and they don't get alone time when they're supposed to get alone time

[ID (from @.happyk44): A wide-eyed humanoid figure stands against a white background with blood splattered across their face, side and feet. /end ID]

so im trying to decipher this chart on wikipedia that has common vampire weaknesses in it and

a ‘green/yes’ is a weakness, a ‘red/no’ is something that isnt a weakness, and a ‘?’ is something that has never been addressed but fucking riddle me this

in what lore are vampires weak to getting soggy in milk

i scrolled over to check to see what this could possibly be and

places a hand on me cheek

happy halloween month time for my favourite post of all time

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sometimes i say things on twitter and then make a little graph about it

The real horseshoe theory.

Once you have some proficiency in a field, you'll be able to tell apart the "this creator is using an inaccurate simplification for a non-technical audience" and the "this creator actually thinks that this is how this shit works", and it will drive you insane.

little quick thing. i know how to wield a pen and paper sometimes

the way transgender women convince themselves that their only other allies in this world are other transgender women is really sad

the idea that there is one group of people that you will only ever find sanctity in and every other group of people on the planet is just waiting to betray your trust is just. Fucking!! Sad!!! It leads to so so so much self isolation because the myth of The Only People You can Trust as a TGirl Are Other TGirls gets perpetuated so often by women who have been hurt and see it as an innate truth rather than the product of circumstance

hi its been like a month since this post and i've been meaning to talk about this for a bit, not because its like, anything that needs to be said but definitely something i gotta get off my chest because it's been eating at me for a bit.

some of you are fucking mean. and not like, in a "i disagree with you so you're morally bad" way, i just mean like. straight up schoolyard bully type stuff when that's completely and utterly uncalled for as an adult. and that really fucking sucks. I'm completely guilty of it too, in the past and in the present, and it's something I'm trying to work on and be better about.

but a month ago I made a post expressing my sadness that the group that i'm a part of, one that deserves love and joy and respect and companionship, is pushed to a point where they see only each other as safe. where they have been constantly beaten down to the point where they are convinced that everyone that isn't like them is out to get them. and that made me really sad, and it still does. some of my best friends in the world are people unlike me that still view me as someone worthy of love and respect and compassion and all the wonderful things friends are for.

i made that post and people added some wonderful advice on how they escaped that type of fear, one that isn't unfounded but ultimately one that you will benefit from leaving behind, and i wanted to share that around so that the people who were going through that and didn't want to have that mindset anymore had some direction. i know trans women are lonely, i am a trans woman. i used to be sad and lonely and isolated. i am not now, and i wanted to help other transgender women find their way to what i have because i feel like I'm very lucky and i want them to experience that joy too. i want my sisters to thrive and im glad a lot of the response to that post was people who wanted to seek out a better life for themselves. i wish i had some of the advice that the wonderful additions to the post gave when i was a younger, less experienced tgirl. it was never about saying that trans women are in the wrong for being fearful about their safety, it was never about telling them they just needed to "reach across the aisle" or some shit. it was sadness at a fucking tragic occurrence in a community I'm a part of and advice on how to get out there and make yourself feel better if you were looking for it.

i made that post venting, because this is ultimately just my blog i dump thoughts on to more than anything, and i don't have a PR team or something. I'm a transgender woman with two roommates who barely scrapes by on her own art. i'm not rich, i don't have like, a cabal of people who go over all my posts and help me individually select each word. I'm a woman with a lot of eyes on me and i try to not let that get to me. but a lot of people really went for the throat and assumed a lot of things about me and what i said even though i clarified dozens of times.

people called me a pickme and said horrible, terrible things about me to their friends and to my face. people assumed i wasn't a trans woman because of what i said. i had popular transgender bloggers directly message me in an attempt to dissuade me from an "antifeminist" rabbit hole. i got told that i was uneducated even though i have taken college courses and worked jobs and read several books of theory on the subject. i got told to kill myself a couple times. i had someone write something horrible about my trans man friend sexually assaulting me (which infuriated me on multiple levels, since my friend is a fucking sweetheart and one of the people who's supported me in my transition the most.) i had people harassing friends and mutuals of mine into unfollowing me because i was social poison for that week.

and, like, what the fuck?

I'm not ever going to say that I didn't word things poorly or explain myself badly or blow up at some folks for what i did. I'm always going to fuck up eventually, and for that I'm sorry. but i'm also one person and people on this site constantly post about how you should treat transgender women better and how they're subjected to endless scrutiny that other groups don't have to, and that you should offer them grace. and i was not offered grace by a lot of the people who reblog those kinds of posts. i'm not saying i was never wrong, but i don't think im wrong in saying I did not fucking deserve all that.

this happens to me way too often. i say something that maybe did not have the most thought put into it but was coming from a place of compassion, and it gets twisted into the most vile, evil version of what i could have possibly said. this happens nearly every month at this rate. and people label me as this horrible shit because they believe that i'm some unquestionably evil piece of shit that's going to ruin everything.

what i am is annoying. i am annoying to a lot of people because of a multitude of reasons, but i'm gonna put my foot down and say that i'm really not anything more than that. i can say some annoying, uninformed shit, but i try to do my best and i want good things for everyone, including the people who sling shit at me because i dont think anyone deserves to live in misery, and my ultimate goal is to leave the world a better place in at least some small way. and it's gonna lead to me annoying some people, and thats fine.

i acknowledge that i can be brash and idiotic and rude, but i never ever want to ruin anyone's life and i think people just need to learn to block me and know that expressing a deep hatred towards a transgender woman you've never even talked to who is just trying to post her thoughts and make life a little easier for people is fucking weird, and you would do better to just be annoyed by me and leave me alone rather than telling me to kill myself, or spread rumors about me, or try to get me deplatformed, especially when my career is literally centered around having an audience for my work. i am self employed; if i get chased out of the public eye, that is my entire income.

I don't really have a point to this. i think i just needed to admit publicly that it fucking hurt to hear some of the things people had to say. im fine with disagreements towards what i say, and i like learning even when im wrong so i can be better, but the amount of vitriol and hate directed towards me was wrong and as a tgirl i fucking deserve better than that.

“God’s favorite little darling” as your bio when you’re 30…. It should be “if the lord lets me see another day”

@wolfi-amadeus-mozart

Hm...I may steal that for my own bio

Danke schön, Herr Salieri!

... my pleasure. Wolfgang.

everyday on here it’s like okay well sure

my cat's self confidence is usually higher than the distance he can jump down from